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People Come and People Go

Life is transient and change is ever-present. People are the same. Some we love and some we fight, but regardless our time is short. Sometimes we have to let go of people in our lives so we can move on.

Personal relationships are rather tricky in that respect. There's no set formula, but rather an impromptu dance (Which probably explains a lot). The last couple of months have been hard, because there are a couple of people I have needed to let go for a long time, but I clung to out of fear and blind hope. I think today, I've been able to let go and to be open.

It all makes sense

Of course she was seeing someone else. Yeah, i wondered why she just
stop returning my phone calls or emails. Great. Well at least she told
me. My new lover is alcohol, she just requires that I pay in advance.

In retrospect, I fucked that up. I didn't call and wondered why. It's
always obvious in hindsight. In the end I have no one to blame but
myself.

Dear no one,

Thanks for listening.

- me

Walking in San Francisco

I walked down mission street and this maybe crazy, but definitely homeless man shouted at us passers-by, "You are closer to death" to the woman with concern in her eye. And it was true. A man in a buttoned shirt walked opposite her and he shouted "Your religion will not save you" while he busied himself on his blackberry. As I approached, he muttered, "Same boat, you and I. While you may catch the later ride". I passed in agreement. Crazy meanderings of an insightful homeless man.

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Side Note:
My personal life feels like a train wreck. It feels like I'm just standing there watching the carnage of a multi-ton of personal baggage train just...go...off..the...tracks. But, under the circumstances I think I'm dealing with it pretty well. But I think something drastic needs to change. Sometimes I think I might be a fatalist. That's a depressing thought.

Jackass or Dumbass? You decide.

View from the room

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